I Shed it for you

I couldn't hold on,
I couldn't hold it within.
To the darkness I swept away
The days, the tears
All away to
The pain, the fears.
I have to notice
Your twisted smile
In the clouds like wisps
Of your evil lust,
For this hurting child.
Now engulfed in this blood
I shed it for you.
All I want is for tears
To show how much I hate of you,
Forgiven already is my need
To hold true
To my promise, my vow
Not to kill me
Not to kill you.
So I shall sit here alone,
And try to renew
What happiness
I used to see within
The false lies of the truth
That is no longer alive in me.