Vulnerable little girl

Churning spinning thought at full speed
distraction confusion what do I see?
Memories reaching cut like a knife
Questions unending a sentence for life?
taunting mocking a noise in my head
Anger raising the color of red
Smile on my face shattered inside
Searching wishing a place I can hide
Chanting screaming ghosts from the past
Darkness descending how long will it last?
Nightmare sneering
I want to awaken
Realize reality sleep was forsaken
I’m sinking I’m falling loosing my mind
Messy unordered control hard to find
Blood flows freely running so cold
Little girl vulnerable feeling so old