stuck back here

I want to look past the past with eyes open
But I'm still stuck back there
I'm still stuck back there
I want to change my mind to see the difference
Between night and day
When the world turns it's back on me I realize
I'm still following it
When I want to look behind me I finally realize
I'm still stuck back there
Still stuck back there I feel so blue
So broken
So alone
Unable to touch another
Unable to love another
Unable to be real
Unable to be human
I don't want to hide in the past where my fears linger
But I'm still stuck back there
I'm still stuck back there
I don't want to give in to the world that holds me back
Because the truth just hurts too much
I feel so broken
When I don't want to understand myself again for now
I'm still stuck back there
Still stuck back there I feel so dead
So unattached
So unaffected
Unable to be true
Unable to shed a tear
Unable to lie to myself
Unable to see the truth
I'm still stuck back there
Stuck back here