a living hell

I've been purple and blue,
By so many of you.
Now this is what I do,
The inside is permanently a scar.
Why did any of it have to go so far.
I no longer can be at peace
My tears no longer can release
I've become numb from my past pain
That even blood falls like rain
I hate all of you who hurt me
Why couldnt you just let me be
From the time I was only a child
You started this hole,
The one I had to surround with walls so tall
So that I'd never snich, I'd never cry, I'd never tell
My mind become a living hell!