its just you

Smothering, struggling, gasping for breath.
The hands over my mouth,
"shut up, stop the damn crying.
Remember last time?"
The pain between.
My legs.
Shutting it out, willing the pain away.
Stroking my hair, soothing words.
Im feeling, terrified,
I awake with a jolt.
Its just my boyfriend.
Cuddling closer, I lie real still;
eyes wide open, willing sleep away.