Cant take back

The night is quiet and empty
the only noise I make
I am sad and lonely
I feel like I will break
I don't want things to be the way they are
I just want life to be okay
I want to be someone's shining star
I want someone to stay
I have tried to change things so many times
and each time they fall apart
I desperately want the sun to shine
I want to mend my heart
and here it's dark and empty
in me, my soul is black
now it is so temptingto do something
I can never take back