closing

Im closing the window
Im closing the door
I lay in my bed
and Im feeling so sore
Im feeling so sad
Im feeling so bland
scratching my nails
in the palm of my hand
feeling such anguish
that I cannot bare
and my palms nearly bleed
yet Im so unaware
like I try to ignore
all the pain that I feel
trying to live
in a world so surreal
but this is too real
I cant be so blind
cuz theres tears on my pillow
and tears in my mind
as Im crying myself to sleep
I turn off the lamp
and Im drifting to sleep
on my pillow so damp